[Verse 1]
Now I ain't never been a god of nothing
So don't align me with a deity
See I been dying to hold onto something
And all this rhyming helps me stay at ease
I'm having fun because I'm not a puppet
And I do what I want to when I please
But I would bet you'd make a harsh assumption
If I were to tell you that I'm making these
Raps cuz I'm tryna be a better person mentally
Settling for whatever's trending selling is never me
But paranoia cuts my checks in every measure, meaning
Every time I wreck a beat I bet it's never meant to be
Murmurs in mayhem, I murder verses verbatim
But every word I gurgle up burns the dirt that I lay in
So all I'm saying is I'm pained within this hurricane
This is the only way thats worked delaying Kurt Cobaining

[Chorus]
This is what I woulda done as my former self
Wicked water, looking young, but ignore my health
This is what I woulda done as my former self
Lemme love it, lemme run from my former self

[Verse 2]
A fluid group of human tissue, look who I grew into
A looney loser loose in his groovy rhythm, I miss youth
I guess I'm good at this music mission I've been through
But what about the business I'm missing? I get the hint dude
I'm bout to blow a black hole through this space-time
1100 decibels, Matt's vocals and bassline
I know I'm acting openly assholeish and haywire
Brain ain't been the same since I sat home and filleted rhymes
Sinner's spitting dope...so is this kid alone?
Isn't what he's written his friend when he's feeling low?
I had to go and open my throat so hope could cement my soul
And now I've spoke a heavy portfolio of my mental woes
This isn't literal, really it's in the process
Penning's how I vent, this is penance, pitiful progress
So as you witness this, it isn't bout that largesse
The heart of this starving artist is cynical and farfetched

[Verse 3]
I keep on rapping cuz I fucking love it
No I ain't chasing any big lights
I need the passion or I suffer sunken
Deep in this abyss, so I'ma spit life
I see these people walk around dead
Solely a shell of what they once were
I believe it's lethal when the sound sets
So my former self is fucking unheard