Sometimes it’s like my whole life is made up, cold nights I wake up
And I lay up awake, under my frayed covers and stay up
I don’t know where to place the blame and I’m ashamed I’ve
Been complacent in my hatred and the pain and I’ve been aching for some
Sleep in the silence, peace in the madness
I’m me, undefined as the freak with the glasses
Speech is a pattern, I preach as I lash through my teeth
Tongue in cheek as I speak out my ass, but
Best appear stable, I’d best appear sane
Best appear able to best my fears’ game
Best revere fables, lest I appear lame
Best that I’m clear, label lessons and hearsay

I know who I am inside (inside)
And he won’t do for my best life (and I)
I know who I am inside
And he hates me, cuz he ain’t me
I know who I am inside (inside)
And he won’t do for my best life (and I)
I know who I am inside
And he hates me, cuz he ain’t me

Come on calm down, I’m calm now, see I ain’t gotta fight
Up on the internet, I’ve been a wreck, and I’m working on my life
My friends all said I’d benefit from perking up, I might’ve
Been on medicine, no sedatives, I’ve learned it with my mind
Do they really like me or do they just tolerate me
And all specificity and eccentricities, a solid maybe
I gotta admit I didn’t like it when they called me crazy
Foggy, hazy, balmy, they would often paint me odd, I’m fading
My Asperger’s in fact’s turned into Autism
I ask for all the facts worded in sarcasm
My last hope is my mask, coping in false heaven
Asinine in action, I’m impassioned in my raw set of
Tactics, swerving with the workarounds
Softening the madness, I’m worried I can’t work it out
I’ve been a patchwork, a frazzled mess and I’m burning out
Whatever rational entrapment that I’m working out, I’m sure I’ll drown it out

I know who I am inside (inside)
And he won’t do for my best life (and I)
I know who I am inside
And he hates me, cuz he ain’t me
I know who I am inside (inside)
And he won’t do for my best life (and I)
I know who I am inside
And he hates me, cuz he ain’t me

See I know who I been inside forever, like
I’m centered but I’m fretting, like whatever, right?
I’m dead inside, but I been all right
You’re never gonna get me but I live my life
Forgetting every sentence ever said to me
I’m innocent and free but I neglect to keep
Whatever I’m believing in my memories
Cuz everything I leave in there is dead to me

I know who I am inside (inside)
And he won’t do for my best life (and I)
I know who I am inside
And he hates me, cuz he ain’t me
I know who I am inside (inside)
And he won’t do for my best life (and I)
I know who I am inside
And he hates me, cuz he ain’t me